Challenged

The last few days I have been trying to write my testimony, I have been challenged to look at where I am currently at and where I am heading. When I sit and look at where I have come from at times I am still awestruck at the amazing transformation that God has done in my life.  Yet I know that I still have a journey ahead of me.

Its hard to keep to my word limit as there's so much that I want to say.  How to bring across the complete joy i now have and healing that has happened.  For those that know me, and see me on a day-to-day that restoration doesn't need to be explained because they see it, but to those who don't know me and may be reading it from place of hurt it may seem like an impossibility. I know because i remember doing just that - reading other girls testimonies, stories of hope and freedom and never being able to see it, not accepting that it could happen to me, maybe slightly doubting that it was true. 

 Now i am on the other side of that and I'm living it. My life is changed, I walk out my freedom every single day. That doesn't mean everything is rosy and fine now - far from it. Life still throws things at me - life still goes on, but how I deal with things has changed. I am not the same girl I was a year ago. I am no longer a victim to my past, I can't change it - BUT I CAN AND I DID CHANGE MY FUTURE! 

I've looked back over the last year and I've seen a miracle, things that I never ever believed would happen happened. But i know that it doesn't stop here, I have a future ahead of me now  - a future i actually want to be a part of! 

People used to say to me that the things i had been through, one day, would help other. I just used to nod and agree yet inside would be screaming. But it is so true when they say 'your test becomes you testimony - and your testimony may indeed change someones life!'   I wouldn't wish my life on any one, but I am so so aware that there are too many people out there who know and are still feeling how i felt and are where I was at.  If I can even plant a seed into their life and show them things can be different then its all been worth it!  You can't argue with a changed life. 

I'm still learning how to walk in my freedom, and some times I do stumble, but I know that's OK as long as I get back up again, forgive myself and I carry on. I am learning to love myself for who i am, living the life that god has planned for me. I know that God has placed things on my heart, but i know that right now is the time for me to life and enjoy being alive - And if along the way i can bring love and joy to someone just by being myself then that's even better!!

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