You Are More!

Last year while I was at Mercy ( A Christian residential programme) I was introduced to Tenth Avenue North - A Christian band. I remember sitting in one of the Staff's car on the way to the doctors and a song called You Are More came on, I had never heard it before, but wow! I sat there thinking that's me!! they are singing about me! I was hooked. The song talks about being more than the choices that you have made, that its not about my past, or what i have done or had done to me but its about what God has done for me and about who i am becoming.
That song became an anthem for a season of my life, but you know what it fits any time. even now it still reminds me that the choices I have made do not define who i am!! 

Sometimes we make bad choices, but that doesn't mean we've messed up, or failed or that we are bad.  It's a mistake and we learn from it and move on. It sounds easy right!!!!   Its not always easy BUT it is DOABLE! sitting and dwelling on the bad choice is going to leave you stuck and in a place of pain and self pity. You cant change it, but you CAN learn from it! 

Making a bad choice doesn't mean that's it, its shows me I've still got things to work on and that's ok because I am still on a journey I'm not at my destination yet so there will still be bumps and bends to overcome. I AM NOT PERFECT but that's ok.

There's a girl in the corner

With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide
She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"
But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight
She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try
But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.
( You Are More Lyrics)

Keep going

This past week I have spent some time processing a lot of stuff, realising a few things and working on 'what next'.   This meant being honest with where I am at, not trying to figure it all out on my own, allowing those around me to help and support.  sometimes admitting where you are actually at feels like a huge step but once you've done it its a huge relief and its probably not as bad as you thought it was going to be. And even just saying it helps kind of makes things seem less big and overwhelming.
But you know what i did find out, having a 'rough' day is NORMAL!!!!!!!  its OK, it doesn't mean you've messed up or failed or anything like that. Everyone has them.  It is how you deal with it and come out of it that matters.   
When you have spent most of your life simply surviving, knowing what is normal when you actually living is hard.  But that;s where talking to people comes in, because something that may seem huge and awful could actually be 'normal' and ok.  

I did realise that life can sometimes take over, if you let it, and can cloud what is actually on your heart, your dreams and visions.  A seed wont grow if its is not cared for, watered and fed. Even if it is planted in fertile soil without food it wont grow.  That's the same with a vision/dream once its planted in your heart it its not going to grow until you start feeding and caring for it. 
There was a time, not so long ago, where I had all these things i 'wanted' to do, but I slowly felt them go quite. why because I wasn't feeding it.  there's so much in my heart that i want to do but all the 'what ifs' and 'hows' crept in and got bigger/louder than the dream.

 But now is my change to change that and start feeding and caring for what's in my heart. who knows where it will take me, but that's OK because I'm ready for the adventure. the next part of my journey. Yeah there may be bumps along the way, but i am more than capable to handle them, I have a BIG God on my side who is greater than anything that is thrown at me. I have awesome people around me and I am FREE!!! 

I was asked last week - What are you contemplating on doing but talking your self out of!  It made me think about what I want to do, but I'm finding excuses not to do!  God opened a big door for me, he gave me a second chance, now its my time to LIVE it!!

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