Keep going

This past week I have spent some time processing a lot of stuff, realising a few things and working on 'what next'.   This meant being honest with where I am at, not trying to figure it all out on my own, allowing those around me to help and support.  sometimes admitting where you are actually at feels like a huge step but once you've done it its a huge relief and its probably not as bad as you thought it was going to be. And even just saying it helps kind of makes things seem less big and overwhelming.
But you know what i did find out, having a 'rough' day is NORMAL!!!!!!!  its OK, it doesn't mean you've messed up or failed or anything like that. Everyone has them.  It is how you deal with it and come out of it that matters.   
When you have spent most of your life simply surviving, knowing what is normal when you actually living is hard.  But that;s where talking to people comes in, because something that may seem huge and awful could actually be 'normal' and ok.  

I did realise that life can sometimes take over, if you let it, and can cloud what is actually on your heart, your dreams and visions.  A seed wont grow if its is not cared for, watered and fed. Even if it is planted in fertile soil without food it wont grow.  That's the same with a vision/dream once its planted in your heart it its not going to grow until you start feeding and caring for it. 
There was a time, not so long ago, where I had all these things i 'wanted' to do, but I slowly felt them go quite. why because I wasn't feeding it.  there's so much in my heart that i want to do but all the 'what ifs' and 'hows' crept in and got bigger/louder than the dream.

 But now is my change to change that and start feeding and caring for what's in my heart. who knows where it will take me, but that's OK because I'm ready for the adventure. the next part of my journey. Yeah there may be bumps along the way, but i am more than capable to handle them, I have a BIG God on my side who is greater than anything that is thrown at me. I have awesome people around me and I am FREE!!! 

I was asked last week - What are you contemplating on doing but talking your self out of!  It made me think about what I want to do, but I'm finding excuses not to do!  God opened a big door for me, he gave me a second chance, now its my time to LIVE it!!

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