You are Not Alone

There's a line in Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix where Harry is talking to Luna after bumping into her in the forbidden forest with the Thestrals. 
"Luna Lovegood: [about her father] We believe you, by the way. That He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is back, and you fought him, and the Ministry and the Prophet are conspiring against you and Dumbledore. 
Harry Potter: Thanks. Seems you're about the only ones that do.
Luna Lovegood: I don't think that's true. But I suppose that's how he wants you to feel. 
Harry Potter: What do you mean? 
Luna Lovegood: Well if I were You-Know-Who, I'd want you to feel cut off from everyone else. Because if it's just you alone you're not as much of a threat. "
 (quotes from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0373889/quotes )
This quote often comes to mind ( the last line mostly) at times when I'm feeling alone or trying to do something in my own strength. It reminds me that we aren't meant to be alone. The enemy likes to get us to a place where we think we are on our own, it could be a tiny thought that you're alone, that God's left you, that there's no one to help. you may have lots of people around you yet still feel alone. The enemy knows that we are an army of God's warriors, 'alone we can't but together we CAN!' if he can make us think that we are on our own he knows that there's more chance that he can get to us. 

I know that times when I'm having an 'off' day the enemy always tries to sneak in there with 'theirs no-one to help you - you are on your own.' 'Where's God when you need him hey!' but over the last year or so I've learnt that actually God's still there its me that's stepped away, I may not have physically moved but within my relationship with God I have. It's a 'vulnerable' wall that I am working on, I am learning to trust that I'm not on my own, and just because there may not be someone with me does not mean I'm alone. 

After years of doing things on my own, and pushing people away - trying not to let people get close, believing that I was on my own, struggling to trust that people actually wanted to help me I now know that it wasn't true, The enemy used those small seeds of lies and he watered them but as it was all I had known i believed it to be true.  Replacing those lies for the truth took a while and I am still strengthening that area.

The last line of that quote may be from a story, but it's true! If the enemy can get us into that place he will and he will keep going, he comes to steal kill and destroy. The scriptures say that God will never leave nor forsake us - God's going nowhere.  If you are sat in a place where you feel alone, where you think no-one is there, even if you are surrounded by people stop and look at where you are with God - when did you take that step back. AND FIX IT. Don't give the enemy the power




Images sourced from Google images.

just moved house

Ok so i havent put a post up for ages, however there's a lot been going on including move into a house! I had forgotten how stressful moving house can get, you would think by now having moved about 9 times that i would be aware of this. But no! Well to be fair I was there was just added things that happened to make this move way more stressful than any other move I can remember.
But its done and I'm now in the house, and things fell into place, I just panicked when it all looked like it wasn't going to happen. but it did. And my house doesn't look too much like a dumping ground ( well apart from one room anyway!) I don't have to rush anything I can take my time ( although I really want it done!) and make this house my home. I can do what I want with it ( well within reason anyway.) 
It's my new start, a new page, kinda like a blank canvas. My old flat was for the most part somewhere where I just survived. I had no motivation to do anything with it - it just was! It was somewhere I locked myself away from the world, it was a place that i took no pride in so I just let it be - i didn't care what happened there. It became somewhere i hated being yet couldn't leave somewhere I tried to run from. 

But this house IS going to be different, its my space, I'm going to fill it with peace, smiles laughter and fun, make it somewhere that is a home and not just a house. The house itself has always been a part of my life but now its my turn to make it my place. when i first moved in before I had even started unpacking I prayed through the house, I brought God into it. I declared life and goodness over the house - I am determined to keep it that way! I prayed for peace to fill every room from floor to ceiling, and I can feel it.  OK so there's been the odd nights where i have been a bit freaked out by random noises and creaking floors/walls ( and new neighbours moving furniture and hoovering at like 2am!!) convinced there was somebody in the house - but over all I have felt settled.  
It's weird how a change of environment can effect things. I guess liking where your living and things feeling settled and comfortable has a big effect on other things.  It's exciting, slightly overwhelming at times but it's all good. 

 Not my pictures - sourced from Google images