But its done and I'm now in the house, and things fell into place, I just panicked when it all looked like it wasn't going to happen. but it did. And my house doesn't look too much like a dumping ground ( well apart from one room anyway!) I don't have to rush anything I can take my time ( although I really want it done!) and make this house my home. I can do what I want with it ( well within reason anyway.)
It's my new start, a new page, kinda like a blank canvas. My old flat was for the most part somewhere where I just survived. I had no motivation to do anything with it - it just was! It was somewhere I locked myself away from the world, it was a place that i took no pride in so I just let it be - i didn't care what happened there. It became somewhere i hated being yet couldn't leave somewhere I tried to run from.
But this house IS going to be different, its my space, I'm going to fill it with peace, smiles laughter and fun, make it somewhere that is a home and not just a house. The house itself has always been a part of my life but now its my turn to make it my place. when i first moved in before I had even started unpacking I prayed through the house, I brought God into it. I declared life and goodness over the house - I am determined to keep it that way! I prayed for peace to fill every room from floor to ceiling, and I can feel it. OK so there's been the odd nights where i have been a bit freaked out by random noises and creaking floors/walls ( and new neighbours moving furniture and hoovering at like 2am!!) convinced there was somebody in the house - but over all I have felt settled.
It's weird how a change of environment can effect things. I guess liking where your living and things feeling settled and comfortable has a big effect on other things. It's exciting, slightly overwhelming at times but it's all good.
Not my pictures - sourced from Google images


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